So I have been pretty quiet over the last couple of months. I wasn’t sure how to portray this into words, and I just felt like I had nothing to say, while trying to keep my shit together and carry on with life. Everything I had thought in something felt like it had turned out to be based completely on lies. I am a very upfront and honest person so when people lie I struggle to understand at times why they would do it. Ive spent the past couple of months just silencing my mind of overthinking and hurting myself and refinding me. London can be crazy, it can consume you and pull you in and sometimes you just need to take a step out. Its been a couple of months of transition, change, letting go, learning to trust in the process, learn to forgive when you don’t get an apology, learning to understand and accept me for me embracing everything I bring and owning it. Its been a journey that I have learnt a lot about my own resilience and learnt a lot about how much I have to give… and understand If I have this amount of heart to give to someone who takes it for granted I am so ready to give it to someone who really deserves it… its been a time to find a sacred space for myself. A time where I have really had to remove myself from a lot of things and focus on the things I know bring me peace in my mind, body and soul and focus on only me. I posted on mental health awareness week about how we all deal with mental health differently and we all have stigma about mental health and what it is. We all face mental health on a day to day basis just by how you deal with life. Some of us are talkers, some of us are not. I am certainly a person who likes to take some time out, understand it, analyse it, make peace with it and then move forward in silence. We can all find it hard to find that sacred space where you can heal. Heal from the race of life, heal from the words going through our heads, heal from the situations that break you heart. Heal from lies you have been told and knowing you will never find out the truth. I truly have some great concepts regarding Find Your Power – that’s what my soul searching does – helps the creative process. But the most important thing in this process is understanding what is your sacred space and helping your own mind and body be your favourite place to be.
In one of my last blogs I wrote about a non comparison of yourself to others. At the time I was experiencing a situation that I had ended up judging everything about who I was, my body, my mind and my soul. Questioning if I was good enough and if I would ever meet someone who accepted me exactly as I was – lets be honest I am a bit of a dork haha. I am a great believer in being kind and understanding everyones situation for what it is. The hardest thing with this is seeing the best in people and situations. The weakness with this is at times, you forget not everyone lives with such an open mind and open heart. Allowing toxicity into your mind causes the effect of a negative loop in your confidence. Even the strongest people can allow this to happen at times. All it takes is one small trigger to set it all off. What it takes is knowing how you can switch it off and get yourself back on track quicker. It’s having strategies for yourself, understanding yourself, being at peace with yourself. How often do you take time out just to reflect? Reflect on what makes you feel peaceful, where are you when you feel peaceful? What inspires you to make a change? If you are in a rut how can you get out of it? When you start really negatively talking to yourself, what has caused this? Is it unhappiness in yourself or is it a trigger for what someone else has said? For me the key message here for you is… you are in that head of yours a lot. We live there 24/7 so we need to ensure its a nice place to be. To create this we need to find time to create a sacred space, so when you are on your own in there its a peaceful place to be. When we create it, that’s when the magic happens, when your energy changes, when you radiate what you want back, when you shine brighter than the sun and everything feels easy. When the right people appear in your life and you learn to let go and realise what really matters to you. Write it out… State. what you want and make it happen. Take your time and find your peace. It’s not always going to be an easy journey, but when you get there, and you have created that sacred space, everything feels lighter and clearer. You deserve it… remember we are all human, good things take time. Sometimes you need to get lost to rediscover and remind yourself you can Create your own sunshine.
All my Love xxx