So I have been pretty quiet over the last couple of months. I wasn't sure how to portray this into words, and I just felt like I had nothing to say, while trying to keep my shit together and carry on with life. Everything I had thought in something felt like it had turned out [...]

That process, sometimes where you need to lose yourself. To allow yourself to feel out of control and go with the flow. Something that comes very unnaturally for me. It's been almost 5 years since retiring as an "athlete" and I still reminisce in those days and what they meant and how they shaped me [...]