Who has it all figured out anyway?

I am here to tell you not a lot of us haha! I got asked the other day, Jayne what is your 5 year plan and for the first time in a long time I froze and panicked! OMG I do not know what my 5 year plan is anymore, I have been DRIFTING!!!!!!!!!! I am a massive planner, like I know its frustrating for others how much I need to know what’s going on. I am not very good at just going along with day to day without a structure and plan in place. The key thing being because I just don’t want to miss anything. People, moments, work, training, food haha (yes you laugh if I don’t plan in food I might get too busy and forget). I like to fully live life and have a plan so I can see everyone In my life but sometimes it gets too much and I panic.

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How many times have you found yourself there? Lost in the darkness unsure of where it is your life is steered. At 30 sometimes I despair at where my life is going, am I on the right path, trying to get back in sync with my vibe and ensure I am “flowing”. Oh yes, we have all heard it, get in your flow and everything will be okay… be patient everything is a work in process… your prince charming is round the corner… okay thanks… Mum that doesn’t help me right now (wondering if I may actually be the real life Bridget Jones) **haha chuckles of laughter**…. Okay we laugh, Maybe a little bit of an exaggeration but sometimes if you don’t laugh you might cry so it is always best to laugh and smile and maybe have an (awkward silence) but you get the gist. Any ladies or gents out there you may know this feeling and even those in relationships and couples. Are you in the right place, are you with the right person. Or career wise, are you In the right place? Are you on the right path? Are you working to live or living to work?

I adore the people in my life who seem to have it all figured out, their aura so strong and powerful with satisfaction and focus. The relationships of couples I know where all your feel there is pure love and complete adoration. I sometimes struggle at wondering if that will eventually be me one day and if someone will be able to put up with my complete stubbornness to loving to have a plan and meticulous and annoying drive for grabbing everything with 2 hands and going full pelt…. But what is the plan? THIS IS BREAKING NEWS Ladies and gents and I am here to tell you something BIG…. Are you ready for it? 

Drumroll please…

THERE IS NO PLAN!!!

I know….  “WHAT?? NO PLAN” I hear you say… what are we all going to do? Surely this is how we base life…  But the plan is you CREATE your own plan and your story! Wow… I know… I find it crazy writing that (crazy planner woman over here) but each day is an opportunity to create your plan. To write your story, to find your path, to make a change, to improve your life, to find love, to be love, to LIVE! What a great thing that each morning you wake up, you breathe in fresh air and have the opportunity every morning to do something with your life, to inspire others with your life, to help others, to help yourself and most importantly to find your power in yourself. This is part of the opening to my new book. Find Your Power which is currently in the process of the plan… and yes this plan has been sitting there for 10 months. It’s taken me 10 months to get round to reminding myself I am at my happiest creating. I am assuming you have all seen PS. I love you? The part of the movie that she is telling Gerry she was born to create. This sounds ridiculous but as I watched this movie in December for the first time in years this quote has stuck with me, the theme song and everything has given me some weird sense of creativity back, like a chord struck. Writing is my creativity and I love it and it helps me help you guys and girls, it also helps me create speaking content to deliver epic talks and speeches. It helps me remember who I am, what I stand for and who I want to be. What is your creativity? Where do you want to go?

Key Thing:
It isn’t about the perfect plan, the perfect life, the perfect Flow, the perfect image, the perfect balance. It’s about just being. Something I am trying to do… just be!
Its about accepting that you have flaws and understanding what you can do about it, but embracing that you can’t always be perfect.
It’s about knowing that no matter what judgement comes your way, you can only be true to who you are.
It’s about accepting what will be will be. You can’t force situations, you can only nourish them.
It’s about being patient, when you want to rush, and about being calm when you want to blow!
It’s about being present right now in this moment and embracing its all step by step, moment by moment, day by day, week on week, year by year.

What is the point in this blog for you? To help you relax, to calm, to flow, just as much a post for me as it is for you. If you are reading this and you are in a momentary lapse of – I am not at the right point in my life. I am not where I need to be… STOP! Don’t panic! You are exactly where you need to be right at this moment in time. Whatever confusion you are going through, whatever success you are feeling, whatever pain you are potentially going through, what is it teaching you? It’s not a negative, it is there for a reason to help you grow, to help you flow and to help you understand what you need more of in your life or less of in your life, people, hobbies, places, air. Whatever you are up to this Wednesday, take time to understand your silence. Take time to get comfortable in it. Time to understand it is good for you. Time to understand the more silent you are the more you can hear, the more you can create, the more you can become clear and the more you can get comfortable in being yourself. Remember you are 90% of how you react to the 10% of life you cannot control. Life is too short to live in fear and doubt and a lack of self love. I am on this journey with you the whole way. Take some time out to create your silence and find some peace.

Happy Wednesday 🙂

Love Me xx


Becoming Human

That process, sometimes where you need to lose yourself. To allow yourself to feel out of control and go with the flow. Something that comes very unnaturally for me. It’s been almost 5 years since retiring as an “athlete” and I still reminisce in those days and what they meant and how they shaped me as a person. Creating my superhuman thinking, that I can achieve and be anyone I want to be. What we struggle with transitioning into “normal” life is a change of identity from one life to another life. It’s a moment a lot of us get lost, but it’s the time to get lost and explore and start the next chapter of whom you are becoming. I know I have struggled to leave that identity behind me, and I still find myself beating myself up if I miss a session or if I eat badly and drink too much. As usual the athlete mindset of perfectionism towards areas of control can kick in and everything can get too much where you step back and reevaluate. It’s a process of trial and error, in all areas, work, relationships, pressures and friendships.

 

For me I made a massive life move to London 2 years ago and it has turned out to be the most adventurous and best move I have made. For the first time in years I feel like I belong again. I have a social life that keeps me happy, a fitness life that keeps my body and my mind fresh and currently work that I absolutely adore. But it’s been a major process… a long old process which you can still at times beat yourself up about. I can find myself judging my life against others and angered at myself I am not at different life phases BUT then I remember I need to breathe and look at what I focused my life in my 20’s on instead. If you are currently struggling to find your human, I want to tell you it’s a journey and its a process. It’s a constantly process of learning and understanding you, as truly you, naked, stripped and as nature intended, taking a deep step into your soul and asking what truly makes you happy.

 

Everyone has an opportunity to change their life in the blink of a moment but so many of us are going through life with our eyes closed – OPEN THEM! You might miss your opportunities that are right In front of you. Why I am writing this? I get a lot of you messaging me regarding how in control I am, busy and focused and how do I stay so positive all the time…. ? True answer is because I am learning to trust the process. The heart aches, the let downs,  the mistakes, the failures, the sad days, the positive, the proud moments, the anxieties I sometimes I feel, the friendships I make daily, the people that pass through life, they are all there for a reason, to help shape you… EMBRACE THEM. They are either a lesson or a blessing, follow your gut instincts and lead with your heart and open your mind to the possibility that all of us are struggling in some ways. The key being: how do you look at the outcome? The positive happy people are the ones who look at everything with opportunity to grow and learn. It doesn’t mean we don’t have down days, we have just learnt how to use them positively. Always bounce back, and always learn. Take your time out to tune into you,  and when you are ready…. become your human – your raw, unapologetically beyoutiful you! Welcome back to my Blogs… all my love Jayne xxxIMG_2871.JPG

Breaking Your Thoughts…

January provides a month where a lot of individuals re analyse their lives, what makes them happy, what do they want and what do they want to achieve. After such big breakthroughs in life for me in 2017, I have felt an immense amount of pressure to keep pushing – which excites me as I feel the effect of the compound effect of positive mental attitude, but recently I have spent a lot of time reflecting on how do I help others achieve that compound effect, how do I encourage and motivate individuals who really are struggling to see the light and enable them to break out the mould of their negative habits. We all have bad/negative habits, BUT after presenting at Scottish Athletics seminar on Eating Disorders last night with such an amazing turn out and listening to Louise Capicotto it really sparked some deep thoughts. So many of us battle thoughts, WE ALL do… but only a handful know how to really deal with their emotions in a positive manner and understand themselves and their own self needs. I have been reading the book, “Quiet” by Susan Cain divulging into the world of introverts and the power of introverts. How difficult is it being an introvert in an extroverted world? We are all expected to be this specific way to be successful – Lawyers, bankers, stock traders, business men, BUT some of the worlds most successful people are those who are introverts. An introvert are sometimes viewed as weird, BUT what if you had the balance correct. Walking away from last nights presentation made me realise a lot of things:

  • You Can Achieve Anything You Decide You Want To Do
    • As I was talking through my experiences last night, this was the first time I have been brutally honest about some of my experiences and lows. 9 years ago I tried to kill myself because I couldn’t handle the demon in my head called bulimia. I was so LOW, I had no esteem, no drive, I had completely lost who I was, my worth, where I was, what I wanted, who I wanted to be, I just wanted this illness taken away from me. I couldn’t see escape, and I thought the only escape was to go. As a bulimic sufferer, unlike anorexia you hide your illness, you look relatively normal weight, can put on a front, hide away socially, physically and emotionally. You learn to shut people out, even the closest to you. I spent days and weeks where I only left my bed after I had starved myself for days to eat, which I knew would start the next cycle. I want to tell you WHATEVER your stage of recovery – YOU can get back to a fully functioning normal life. You CAN believe in yourself again, you just need to keep working on it, you need to keep reminding yourself YOU are worth it. I have days still now here and then where I am so low I want the world to disappear, BUT what I have realised is that these days are few and far between, and it is mostly due to the fact that one of the personality traits of an ED sufferer is OCD and Perfectionism. I have spent, and still spend time daily working on my mindset and strength to ensure I am fully functioning. It is something I will never be able to stop doing because I always want to keep improving and growing and being a better human being to help others become happier and healthier too. Last night I stood up in front of a room of nearly 100 people to speak with confidence, and happiness about my experiences in a positive light. Listening to Louise also helps prove that There is a light at the end of the tunnel YOU need to keep going, because I promise you that it is worth it. One step at a time. Don’t beat yourself up at a set back, just refocus, regain your thoughts and start moving forward again. At times last night my anxiety started to take over as I was speaking at the thought of, “I am setting myself up for complete judgement” and thoughts running through my head at points were, “everyone thinks I’m a joke” and “I am not good enough to be up here” BUT I have learnt to shut out my chimp! That voice that negatively talks me down – YOU can do that too, the thoughts may be there but it’s learning how to destroy them and prove them wrong.

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  • The Power Of Others Emotions and Words
    • How many times have you taken a moment to think about your emotional affect on someone else? It is something I am very very conscious about, but its something a lot of people do not think about or care about. I have written a couple blogs that touch on this topic and an instagram live feed. The power of others negative impact on your thoughts. How many times have you walked into a room and put that negative emotion onto the others in the room? If I ever do that, the next best thing I do is apologise straight away and try to create a positive impact. How many times have you thought about the power of your words? I spoke last night about unveiling in counselling sessions some of my triggers from back when I was a child. I speak about in my book an incident from back when I was 6 year olds, that sparked the trigger of embarrassment for not being good enough. When I was 8, upon being left out of a group I was called Fat, at 10 a passing comment from a parent which was overheard by a friend about potentially being ill (anorexic) was passed onto me from a friend again only 10 neither of us understanding what it meant because I was super skinny “far too skinny”. Sometimes you don’t realise the power of what you say and the affect that has on your subconscious mind. This is why the phrase be kind always is so important. Girls especially are terrible, I would never want to go through my teenage years ever again, BUT now guys are becoming increasingly worse. WE ALL NEED TO STOP TEARING EACH OTHER DOWN –  WE NEED TO START BUILDING EACH OTHER UP. What makes someone more important than the next person? NOTHING! We are all equal in our own right. Lets start creating that environment for the youth of today to grow and love instead of tearing each other down. This starts from adults now – our generation the generation before us – WE SET THE PRECEDENT! Which is why I am so privileged and grateful to have the opportunities I have now to help change the future for our youth. IMG_2297-1
  • Admission is NOT weakness it is STRENGTH 
    • Admission is not a weakness it is a strength. It takes some guts to admit, “I have a problem” NO MATTER WHAT it is: Addiction, mental health, medical issues, eating disorders, disabilities, there is nothing to be ashamed off. One of the key purposes of speaking out was to help others realise, Yes I have had an Eating Disorder and do you know what No I am not ashamed of it. It is something that defined me for so long, but IT no longer will define me, it helped me redefine myself, it has catapulted me to really learn who I am, it has enabled me to see what serious depression is in and made me realise how fortunate I am to have made it through, to see light in each day and have the opportunity to help others to see that you can break through. Every struggle you go through is a lesson, a lesson for you to grow, and understand who you are better. I am not saying it will be easy, BY GOSH it will take hard work, a lot of HARD work, but how much do you want to live a normal life again? How much do you want to see the light? How much do you want to laugh and smile at the sun rising in the morning, to smile at the beauty of the world, see the light and hope in others around you and see the good in what everyone is trying to do for you and help others understand how to be kinder and happier.  Admission is the first step to saying, “I am strong”, “I want a better life”, “I deserve to be happy” and YOU DO! I want you to know that you are not alone. Admission is a lonely phase, it can be isolating and scary, its the steps that you know you can’t back out, you have a stamp on your forehead, BUT you are not alone. We are here for you, and we are here to help you see the light. Speak out, reach out and allow yourself to live yourself again, overtime, you will see it is worth it. Don’t let your demons define you – Lets rise up and burn your flame so bright. IMG_1296

“Somewhere inside all of us is the power to change the world”

Roald Dahl

I AM  – The Two Most Powerful Words You are Going to use:
I am POWERFUL
I am BEYOUTIFUL
I am WORTHY
I am READY
I am A WARRIOR
I am GOING TO CHANGE MY LIFE

* I believe in you – I want you to believe in you too *

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With Love

J

xxx

Jayne is available for Transformational speaking engagements and Event Hosting.

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Be The Change You Want to See in the World

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Ghandi once said: “Become The Change You Wish to See in the World” which ressonates and resounds so clear with me in regards to my outlook on life. Let’s not deny it, everyone has things they go through, but the ones who fight through despite potentially the world crumbling around them are the ones we gain strength from, the people we look at and think wow, “I want to be able to be like that”. I had similar feelings, which is why I wrote my book: Free-ed. I used to pray for my mind and my body to look at myself in the mirror and be happy with what was standing there, for my mind to stop tormenting me that I wasn’t perfect, that if I could just portray happiness within myself to the outside world, that I could be one of these people whos’ smiles shined brighter than anyone elses because I installed hope and inspiration to others. Then I realised – “but Jayne you need to work this out for yourself”. As Arielle Ford says,

When you truely love yourself, you are no longer willing to compromise your standards, because you value your happiness too much.

This is a very powerful and very true quote. Alot of us hold onto things in our life that cause up negative feedback and negative feelings. Why? Because it is safe. It is safe to feel like that, it is easier to live like that in that moment than making a change. It is easier because you stay hidden in the background not embracing who you are and who you REALLY want to be. Let me ask you a question right now:

Are you TRUELY being TRUE to yourself 24/7?

 

If your answer is no – then we need to start identifying and working out who you REALLY Truely are and then express yourself that way being 100% comfortable in you! My new book Free-ed helps you identify what is stopping you be your true self and we work through a step by step guide together on how to help you embrace your true self!
This is available for order on October 16th 2017

But for Friday here is 3 steps to start embracing your true self and be your best version:

  • Identify Who And When You Feel Most Yourself
    • When you are most happy in yourself identify who you are around, how do you feel, where are you when you feel like that and who are you at that moment? For me – at school I never really felt like I fit in, but when I was training or around my athletics circle I felt completely at ease and myself. Only surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you not the stress in you. Once you start doing this you won’t accept anything less
  • Start Accepting AND Embracing Your Quirky Ways
    • Don’t listen to negative influences. If you met me a couple of years back, I used to be told I am so embarassing, I needed to remember where I was, and that I was unlovable because I was so head strong and driven. After removing that negativity from my life and a WHOLE journey of self discovery, I am TRUELY myself 24/7 embracing all quirks, all embarassingness, to truely be who I am. If someone doesn’t accept it, it is more than likely that I also find them awkward to be around. What is the saying “Your vibe attracts your tribe and when you find your tribe love them hard.” You need to start accepting that you don’t need to fit in, you were born to be your UNIQUE self. If you truely are YOU you attract other like minded people into your life. These people will be truely your friends, your soulmates and the correct people that are only going to lift you higher in your life.
  • Remind Yourself its not you, its them
    • When you find yourself doubting, KEEP reminding yourself, a reflection on how someone treats you is their insecurities with themselves not you. REMIND yourself if they don’t vibe with you they aren’t your tribe. If you can’t be truely yourself around someone they aren’t the right person for you to be around.

This Fri-YAY I want you to EMBRACE every single little part of you and remind yourself –

Be The Change YOU want to see in the world and Shine Your Light

Free-ed is available for Print Order on October 16th 2017

What’s Stopping You: how to start believing yourself

Everyone’s been there… you really want to achieve this big goal but for some reason you are just not quite ready to take the risk. Something’s holding you back, whether it’s fear, self doubt, negative talk, other people and sometimes the fear that it will go right and your whole life will change – scary stuff right? Because being comfortable is well comfortable. What if you knew that if you took that leap and faced whatever it was that you wanted… imagine how that life would feel like? What if it’s telling someone you love them, or embracing change and moving to a new location, or going for that new job? What is stopping you? I procrastinated for 8 months before eventually taking the leap and moving to London everyone faces fear but here I want to you take the challenge head on. So here is my top 5 tips for getting what you want, when you want it and embracing fear:

  • Identify Your Goal

Identify exactly what it is you want to achieve. Draw a mind map, map it all out, imagine what your life would be like if you achieved it. How accomplished you would feel, how excited you would be. This will create a clear image of exactly where you want to be.

  • Identify your fears

What are your current fears and attitudes towards this. What do you feel is currently stopping you from going for it. Don’t be afraid to write it all out. The more honest with yourself the better and it can be as silly as you think.

  • Create a roadmap

Create a plan of action. How are you going to overcome these fears, how are you going to get to your desired goal. Plan it all out from a – b and any road stops you have in the middle.

  • Tell people about your goal

Honestly it’s sounds scary but if you start telling people you are going to do something by goodness you will ensure you do it. Last year when I started writing my book I started telling everyone because I thought if I don’t I’ll keep putting it off. Then every time you see someone they will ask “oh how is the book going”. Do it, start spreading the word.

  • Put all your intentions towards it

The saying what you think about you bring about. Put positivity out there. Start ensuring you are putting positive vibes on the situation. When you talk to people notice how your voice and persona shows excitement and clarity. Go show the world what you want to show them.

Today I want you to think about something that you feel you are holding back from – grab it with 2 hands and start working towards showing the world.

A Girl should be two things: Classy & Fabulous

So fashion – let’s talk about it. It is featured in our day to day lives. It is how we express ourselves, how we feel, how we portray who we are. Fashion can create first impressions and can be very defining for you. I remember when I first worked in an office and I put on my suit to go to work… the moment walking down the street I felt empowered, strong and successful. The same as what you wear in terms of how it shapes you and how you dress yourself. The best thing about fashion and beauty is that it is your way to express your personality but this scares people. They hide away and don’t express themselves because they don’t want to stand out. Part of “beyoutiful u” is trying to work with YOU to enable you to dress beyoutifully U according to your personality, your body shape, your skin tone and how you want to be viewed. I am going to be interviewing experts in the industry on what their hints and tips would be for you in terms of outfit choices, colours and shapes to suit who you are and what impression you are going to give. Here are some of my choices from the past month:

  • My Favourite: Networking Event
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    • At a networking event you want to give the right impression. You need to decide what statement you are trying to make and what you want out of the event. For a recent networking event I wore this strong and bold jumpsuit. This jumpsuits highlights my curves in all the right places and it is a statement print meaning – I mean business and want to stand out. I know that monotone suits my skin tone and I brightened up the outfit with red lippy. POWER COLOUR.
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  • Casual Saturdays: Ripped Jeans/Double Denim/Mesh Top/Sparkly Shoes
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    • Saturdays are all about looking fresh, having fun and being fashionable for me. This summer has been all about the sparkly trainers. I LOVE them. I am sad that this is coming to an end. But I love on weekends to look fresh, make a statement but still seem casual. I like to make sure that I am like: Hey I love fashion but today I am just chilling.
    • Jeans, Jacket and Top: TopShop.com
    • Shoes: Asos.com
  • My ultimate fav this month: Statement Dress
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    • When you wear a statement dress and colour you are saying Hello World I am here. When I am feeling really strong and powerful in my mind, body and soul I like to step it up and be bold. Alot of people are afraid of being bold because they don’t know what people would say. I wouldn’t of dreamed of wearing ANYTHING this bold 4/5 years ago as I wanted to hide away. As I have worked on my mind and sould I have felt more and more confident expressing how I feel through clothes. You can too!!

Find your way to fashion freedom with my book: Free-ed: Stop Self Sabotage and start living your life again. OUT October 16th 2017.
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It’s not about me!

You have all heard the phrase it’s not you it’s me right? This is a very very true phase – but a phrase that needs to be adapted towards someone elses anger/frustrations/hurt/words/sabotage towards you – “It’s not about me – it’s them”. Today I want you to realise and accept that some people aren’t going to get you, like you or even want to be around you. Some people will find you HIGHLY annoying, not understand your path, criticise you, cut you down, treat you badly – why? It’s about them not about you! This is a concept a lot of people struggle to understand. With “beYOUtiful U” I am trying to help YOU as a person understand and be truely YOU. How many times have you been feeling unbelievable, truely happy, content and in control of your life then someone comes along and very quickly cuts you down and brings you back to question your life, your morals, yourself, who you are? It happens all the time!! I have lots of conversations with individuals and clients that I always are reminding and get them to think about the situation from the other persons side. When someone treats you as if you are an option – its because they treat themselves as an afterthought – YOU need to have the strength to show YOURself that you are not an afterthought so you are not brought down to their level. When someone condemns your ideas – YOU need to remember that they are YOUR ideas, at least your are making YOUR ideas, in YOUR life, trying to create YOUR life, not theirs, and then think maybe what is happening in theirs that they want to bring yours down – do they not enjoy their job? Are they going through a tough time? Are they struggling to find their path in life? Okay I will be honest with you now – once you start looking at life this way it will change your whole outlook – have you ever heard of the phrase: “you never know someones story be kind always?” It is very very true. So here is my key points to not allow someone elses insecurities to allow inner doubt in yourself:

  1. Everyweek refocus and check you are still on the right path
    • Checking your life path, checking your goals are aligning up to where you want to go, checking that you know you are making the correct steps on your journey will help enable you to say STOP! No negative self talk, I know I am on my journey, this is their self doubt not mine.
  2. Positive reinforcements daily
    • Do one thing daily that you know makes you feel amazing about yourself, whether thats doing positive affirmations, going to the gym, meditation, something that makes you refocus and recharge your brain, your soul, your mind so if someone comes at you with negativity you have your positivity sheild on.
  3. Remember everyones got a story
    • This is one of the big ones – remember everyones got a story. If someone is rude, negative, abrupt, unaccepting of you, YOU do not know what is going on in their life. Be kind, be patient and be the bigger person. Actually say to yourself, “it’s not me, it’s them” and then remember for the next time you bump into them, ask them are they okay? You never know what your response will be.
  4. “Pay Attention To The People Who Don’t Clap When You Win
    • In my book “Free-ed” I talk about looking at your bus, your journey and who is on your journey with you. I love this phrase pay attention to the people who don’t clap when you win. REMOVE envious people out of your life. All envious people will do is bring you down and discourage you from achieving your goals. I have been in a situation in my life before that I was in a relationship where we were toxic for each other. Whenever I was in a good place, things were going well, the other person in this relationship would call me unreachable, make me feel bad for things going well, and make me feel like I didn’t deserve it, and bring me to a place where I would then be SO low that I needed support. DON’T ALLOW PEOPLE TO BRING YOU DOWN. Remove these people INSTANTLY. Anyone who makes you feel like your not worthy, that you are too much effort, that you are strange, bizarre – You don’t need this negativity in your life. You will find friends, partners and people who accept you WHOLLY as YOUR complete self. This is a journey you need to embark on.

 

So from today – recognise these key points in your life. Smile more, spread kindness, radiate positivity and remember YOU ARE AWESOME just the way you are.

be YOUR own kind of beYOUtiful

In your own weird, wonderful and colourful way – so you attract in your true tribe.

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FREE-ED: Stop self Sabotage and start living your life again
Is out on OCTOBER 16th

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